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Monday 28 April 2008 14:56
STRESSED!!!currently studying history..chiong essays...today was kind of a good day after all...went to church today with the amount..when passed to the owner,i really felt that my burden was take off..really felt 'light' just now..which was good...haha...then service..hm..did not really know what pastor is talking about..haha..then cell..ok lor..just keep saying the iron joke..lols..then did something stupid..was asked to pray for those who wants height..2 brothers in church..why me among so many people in cell?cause they say i got the 'height' anointing..which is like lols..but dunno why after cell go eat with jie they all but i wait till like so damm pissed..really cannot control..feel like scolding people...cause i really need time to study..then qiqin jie never go church then not going burger king then need to go bugis to meet shi min to study..but managed to control afterall then never scold people..went simpang eat noodles..then uncle give me a BOWL of 'zhu you zha'..muahahaha..so happy sia..finished the whole bowl when i know is unhealthy..lols..then after that actually want go bugis de but after discussion..decided to go kallang with jie and shuilin to study..then we like siao..walking from mac to kfc then from kfc to mac..managed to study a bit lah..then went to leisure park..OMG!there got dogs show...so many dogs sia..damm happy..then went to fav shop..airo joy..woohoo..bought alot of brag tags..then jie amd shuilin also got buy things..everyone went home with something..lols..when reach home immediately do history till now..then eat 'shao rou' and 'guan chang'..eat alot of fatty stuff today..must go do exercise le..stomach is going to show le.."and oh FATTY day, FATTY day"..lols..hoping for a better day tml..pray for me..i study till going crazy le..cause no one can help me in situation like now..haha..
Heavenly Father,i hand myself into the mighty hands of Yours..Father please look after my studies and everything around me..and i really hope that nothing will happen in this period of time that will affect my exam..hope after my health Father..bless those around me too..and those who cared and prayed for me the most..thank you Father..in Jesus name i pary,Amen.
Friday 25 April 2008 15:55
currently,my parents are fighting..for goodness sake who knows what happened...one want to pick the fight then another one want to go fighting together with her..for God knows how long i will be living in this house..fighting over like a phone call?!?!can't people just talk nicely to each another?why people love to go agitate another person then say is another person beat them?what kind of shit is this?because of a phone call,because of a birthday celebration..i was surprised by myself this time i never join in the fight for ONCE..everytime i will go join in the fight but today,i dun think there is any reasons for me to form allies with either sides..both sides are cruel in a sense..and i am also tired of my own life..haiz..just hope that God do some changes in this fighting family or just TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS IRRITATING HOUSE..pissed by so many things around le still need care about people fighting..what crap..see..in the end..i will still be in the losing end..got help also same,no help also same..wha lao..what kind of life is this man?irritated leh..
anyway..the third teacher talked to me about the problem again..this time is my NPCC officer-in-charge..he is a nice teacher..as in he is really concern about my school life lah..and my studies..he was sort of blaming himself?because he thought the cause was NP..but told him no lah..then he sort of banned me from joining the drill com this year..haha..he wants me to catch up everything during this period of time..as in studies lah..the most important one..
ok..fighting ceased..but now is nagging and maybe banging of things and blah blah blah..seriously cannot tolerate childish adults who fight or quarrel about almost everything under the sun..for goodness sake..grow up and stop all this nonsense..it makes no sense at all!irritating b**** and b******...shall stop here..or else before i know,i will be nagged for using com..
phew..the big rock in my mind was finally moved away just now...i tried my best to keep myself awake le..though i still abit sleepy at the middle of the 3 period of bio..but managed to wake myself up..praise the Lord..continuing from the previous post about the sch matter..today had a better understanding of the matter..the sch will call parents if not wrong but i think is because they will be monitoring me closely..so it's ok lah..cause it won't be a threat to me!i already promised God to study well for the MYE..so why should i be scared of?
after school went to loyang point with renee,clar and jasmine for their contacts..really have the chong dong to go get a pair of contacts..so cool..gonna buy it..but haha..financial crisis..so no money..but going to work in the hols to earn money for my contacts!so now i going to do my best in the MYE in order for me to go work in the June hols..wanna have coloured contacts..work for it!
I want colour contacts!
Abba Father in heaven,i pray that You will follow me wherever i go to,let my cup overflows in Your love..You are my provider..everything is in You..please love me and let me feel Your presence..let me pass my exams so that i can glorify Your holy name.i will do my very best in this test..God..i know that You will love me more than i can hope or dream of..i hand my life into Your hands my Father in heaven..in Jesus name i pray.Amen
Thursday 24 April 2008 13:51
today wasn't a very good day..was already frustrated in the morning..tried telling myself not to sleep in class anymore..but was still sleepy lah..cannot really concentrate well..but manage to catch some points..after school saw miss toh..then she asked me to buck up in my studies..then say my parents will be called to school..(was heard that today's teachers' meeting every pupil in sec3 was discussed by all the sec3 teachers..and those who has done badly for whatever things in school,parents will be called to sch)at that moment,really wanted to just jump off a building to end my life..i just find life pointless to me..is like a few days ago i just told myself that i will really go study well and not play already but today i was really pull down again..my faith is like thrown from the 20th storey to the ground floor..called jie and told her..was really looking for someone to talk to..so when i went my friend's hse i wanted to chat through msn with a brother..but he told me he tired..haiz..no one to let me talk to..sad for me..but i give thanks to the Lord for i still kind of managed to stand up a bit..left my friend's hse at about 2030..
on my way home i gave one of my xiaomei a call..her life isn't very smooth lately..talked to her for the whole journey back home..hope that she understand lah..when i was talking to her..i wasn't feeling very good cause i think that we both went through almost the same matters..hope that i can learn what i told her too..today was really a sad day..hope that tomorrow will be a better day..
Wednesday 23 April 2008 13:27
today miss mariana(maths teacher) cannot stand it anymore then ask me go out of class then tell me she wants to talk to me..kana scolded by her.cause everytime when i sleep in class thren she will be like 'weicong wake up'then today she scolded me lah..then say if i want sleep in her lesson then dun go attend her lesson..ok..she is really pissed off by me..haha..something really funny happened in sch today..ok..we are like having our history class test today..then i yesterday never study mah..then i today go sch chiong lor..then everywhere i go before history class i talked abt the Tsar's monarchy..so when my classmates and i were waiting outside AVA for history teacher to come,caselyn suddenly asked michael a question "where's the Tsar's winter palace?"(there is really winter palace)so michael dunno tell her what then replied"you know hor,the Tsar not only had winter palace but he also had summer palace,spring palace and autumn palace..."then caselyn was like"izzit?"then michael go tell her"cause hor..the Tsar wen to different palace to stay during different seasons"lols..ok..it's really stupid..then to continue this JOKE,i go tell her.."actually there's a HOLY MONDAY after Bloody Sunday..they named it holy monday to mourn for people who died on bloody sunday"then everyone there was laughing..lols..then after that before the test i did tell her that i was joking with her..haha..then when we returned to class,i go joked with her then asked her,"so did you write holy monday?"then she's like "ya.."then i laughed like dunno what then when i tell the history students,all of them laughed..then caselyn laughed till cry then keep saying wha lao..lols..then after that i go ask her how she write then she tell me she forget about bloody sunday then she go write.."hundreds of people died on Bloody Sunday..thus,on the following day,the citizens CELEBRATED the death of the people who died on Bloody Sunday and named the day Holy Monday."hahahahahaha..it was seriously funny sia..i mean like..she say got study but it's obvious she did not study cause she still tell me she was about to write about the season palace story..lols..then i am like if she write about the winter palace thing..it will be like.."it was winter at that point of time so the Tsar was living in the winter palace.."haha..i think i will kana scolded by my history teacher for sure..but i think maybe he will go write in caselyn paper or just ask her"caselyn,are you trying to be funny to me?"ok..i think i very bad..this test is counted as level test then got percentage in SA..then i still laughed at her..so funny lah..but seriously,sorry caselyn for telling you holy monday..then my friend was like why didn't you tell her good friday..lols..i was about to tell her sabbath tuesday one sia(sabbath should be on sunday)..phew that i did not say..or else i think she will also write down one..
after school went downtown to eat..went to E-hub first..it was really an awesome place..now want go watch movie just cross a road can le..no need go tamp liao..haha..so nice..and got pasta mania also..woohoo!had a good 'bonding' session with jia hui and yun han they all lah..they are just friends that are worth having..so nice to talk to..haha..and not forgetting miss burnt hair..haha..then when back sch actually want study and do homework de but in the end played 'dai-di' with classmates..haha..
then after that went to meet qi qin jie then she taught me about physics lah..lols..had a fun time joking with her..then spent about 1 half hours studying..lols..eyes were really closing le..then qi qin jie keep asking me to wake up..then worst thing is still need go church to meet the da shao ye to take something..but in the end he at simei..so haapy sia..cause qi qin jie also alighting at simei then she pei me go look for him at sakae sushi..then go take money with him..then after that walked qi qin jie halfway home.haha..then when home..waited bus for like half an hour..haha..but today was really a funny day(:
Wednesday 16 April 2008 14:08
today was an 'adventurous' day for me..hmm..sounds stupid but my worksheet was tore up by my ss teacher who always shooting me..like what crap..then i need to go copy the worksheet out again..ok lah.i mean i do in her lesson but she dun need liddat one mah..sad..then today got NPCC..ok..was rather excited cause first time being an NCO lah..was actually only a campcraft member only..but today alot of them training for speech day then i need to take over as an IC..was pissed by the sec 1s lah..do everything like snail..but was bit stupid lah..everyone's like 'weicong sir' like wow that kinda thing..did checking all this blah blah blah..then when changing from NP uni to sch uni that time..i dropped my 10 dollars then he picked up the money then told him was mine then he dun believe then keep saying that i lying or whatever crap lah..then nco debrief session..was chided..think that there's more to come..sian..hmm..tml still need follow shenghong to beach road to buy np stuff..haiz..yesterday was a stupid day?after school when for dry shoot with prcs..nasuha saddest sia..the only girl cause me her and michael when to join prcs for their shooting then their cca is all guys de..that makes nasuha the odd one out..then ok lah..shooting was ok..the CI there was like keep teaching me the technique for shooting cause change pistol le..then he say then i stress till sweat like siao..then he is like 'nervous arh?'ok..that was funny of him..then after that walked to eastpoint cause is at the police station at simei..then bought my favourite ice kimo and waffles at daily fresh..then go home..ok..sounds stupid..but seriously is so stupid..my life is really so boring..so dull..no colour is gonna appear in my life!and to that someone..show some respect for others and dun keep making decision for others..it is very irritating..please understand..
Monday 14 April 2008 13:48
God..please..i am tired..let me find my rest in you Lord..i am really stressed out..i thank you for the ppl you sent to me..ok..not my ears but cui xian jie..i believe i really made her very angry yesterday..i am really sorry..i won't avoid you de..you are just too good to me..haiz..you scolded me for a reason..so no need for a sorry..i am sorry to everyone around me..i dunno why but i am very irritated with the slightest things that happened around me recently..i had no one to talk to...all my ears seems troubled..i dun wish to find anymore new ears..so just wish to say sorry to those who wants to help me..did not want to go church today de..was really God's plan that i arrived at church today..i really had no mood..a church friend asked me what i take church for..haiz..i mean maybe you dun understand what i am going through now?how am i going to stand again when everything around me seems to be wrong...my 3 tracks are all not doing well-family.school,church..nothing seems to be perfect..everything/everyone seems to be going against me..i think maybe this is how God is building me but i am really tired..tired of life?maybe..people are struggling to live yet i am thinking of dying..haiz..living is really a big obstacle that eveyone has to face..maybe i dun have that courage to overcome these obstacles..is letting it go a good idea?
reached church at abt 11.30 today..was really late but it's better than nothing..attended worship gathering but my heart was absent..could not focus..after that actually wanted to go to the john little sales but ya..did not manage to go..when was wondering where to go..the church friend i mentioned earlier asked me why i did not attend service,and cell..told him i woke up late..he askwd me whose fault izzit..it's my fault..i will try to wake up earlier..then actually planned to go ziting's hse to play cluedo with her because that time she suddenly sms me telling me she wants to play cluedo..but then did not go her place..went to tm with michelle..talked to her?ya..little lah..then after that went to bedok library to sleep..happy seems to be deleted from my dictionary/my life..haiz..hope that my new week will be a better one..
Saturday 12 April 2008 15:30
enjoyed being an NCO?maybe i finally understand why everytime NCOs shout at cadets when they do things slowly..helped out in the sec 1s checking of their uniforms..it was then that i found out that 2 years just past in such a quick time..when seeing them checking their uniform,i kept thinking of myself 2 years back..sitting there checking the uniforms but now i am the one teaching others to 'prepare' their uniform..2 years..haiz..alot of things happened..how i wish i can go back to 2 years ago..mr chia asked me to go to NPDP..haha..he say if i go for this event then he will go cover the days that i pon np..but then is actually i lead worship de..then the first person in nmind that can help me is my lao jie(shuiting)..so i called her..then really begged her to help me..cause i know is really short time lah..but she helped me lor!so happy..thanks lao jie(:back to topic..haha..the sec 1s are really hard to control..i think i shouted at them?was the bad guy just now..really have the urge to pump them..haha..they took 30 mins to change into NP uniform..was sort of pissed..cause i have no time..i meeting jie at 5.30 at expo mrt..actually wanted to leave school by 3.30 then go home to change clothes then go meet jie de..cause we wanted to go for the concert again but we had no tickets..so was thinking of going early to queue for the free seating de..but the sec 1s really took so long that everything ended at 5.00..then after that CI talked to us..haiz..not easy being an NCO..new role means new responsibility..after everything finished,it was already 6.30...was already late for 1 hour..jie told me that she had took mrt to changi airport then back to tanan merah le..haha..she was seriously pissed..so went directly to meet her..was thinking that we have no tickets le..should also be no seats le..but at this moment when we just join the non-ticket queue,a man walked up to jie and me..then he asked me i izzit no ticket then i need how many tickets..haha..he gave me 2 when i told him sia..for jie and me..then he told me that he was my senior(haising senior)..cause i was wearing the school uniform..haha really thank God lah..He planned everything right from the start..was so happy..then jie started talking to me..i was like damm guilty..haha..saw hui2 they all..actually dun wish to sit with them de..but went to sit with them eventually..really enjoyed the worship session just now..when it end,jie and me were like still want to have a 100 hours praise and worship session..it was really so nice..was really touched to hear planetshakers playing the song 'rain down'..saw haising cell..haha..after the concert they were like shouting my name sia..like so damm loud that everyone turned to look at me..lols..i was like saying thank you to them..lols..after that went to bedok central with jie to eat..haha..saw weixiang and 'gang'..lols..we were like so high sia..like hey..why you here..started asking each other this kind of questions..after eating wanted to take bus 168 de..but the last bus just went..haha..then went to take bus 67 and jie went to take bus 222..then mother called..say what go fetch me..then tell me very fast..insisted to go fetch me..and it took them 30 minutes to go down to bedok..lols..really thank God for today..everything seems planned..which was true..haha(:
Friday 11 April 2008 12:11
haiz...have you experience when you dun even have a single cent with you for a few days?i seriously been through it..haiz..really broke..and dunno why sia..changing notes with ze ming in the same 'exchange' rate but why i like the more i change,the lesser money i have..sometimes really ask myself..izzit really worth doing things till this far..will others really appreciate what you have done for them?people will just blame you for doing wrong things but they won't praise you for doing good things..for example,the two days i go back to cz to help out but everytime also kana scolded,oh please...the youngest always has the least say in anything..fall out with quite a number of good buddies these few days..hope that i will still be able to stand despite all these setbacks..but the will for living,fighting is really lesser and lesser..
went for the planetshakers concert just now..it's nice..but minutes before the concert starts..i cried upon hearing that my best buddy was diagnosed with cancer..though it is only the second stage,i just kept asking God why must it be her..i kept asking God to let me suffer instead of her..the scene of me and her watching a movie last tues keeps appearing in my mind..i really cannot believe that this is a fact that i have to face..she is such a cheerful person..qiqin jie and jie kept talking to me..and i was able to hand over to God before the concert starts..and when i heard the worship songs..i knew that God is there and i enjoyed myself in the presence of God..
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Monday 28 April 2008 14:56
STRESSED!!!currently studying history..chiong essays...today was kind of a good day after all...went to church today with the amount..when passed to the owner,i really felt that my burden was take off..really felt 'light' just now..which was good...haha...then service..hm..did not really know what pastor is talking about..haha..then cell..ok lor..just keep saying the iron joke..lols..then did something stupid..was asked to pray for those who wants height..2 brothers in church..why me among so many people in cell?cause they say i got the 'height' anointing..which is like lols..but dunno why after cell go eat with jie they all but i wait till like so damm pissed..really cannot control..feel like scolding people...cause i really need time to study..then qiqin jie never go church then not going burger king then need to go bugis to meet shi min to study..but managed to control afterall then never scold people..went simpang eat noodles..then uncle give me a BOWL of 'zhu you zha'..muahahaha..so happy sia..finished the whole bowl when i know is unhealthy..lols..then after that actually want go bugis de but after discussion..decided to go kallang with jie and shuilin to study..then we like siao..walking from mac to kfc then from kfc to mac..managed to study a bit lah..then went to leisure park..OMG!there got dogs show...so many dogs sia..damm happy..then went to fav shop..airo joy..woohoo..bought alot of brag tags..then jie amd shuilin also got buy things..everyone went home with something..lols..when reach home immediately do history till now..then eat 'shao rou' and 'guan chang'..eat alot of fatty stuff today..must go do exercise le..stomach is going to show le.."and oh FATTY day, FATTY day"..lols..hoping for a better day tml..pray for me..i study till going crazy le..cause no one can help me in situation like now..haha..
Heavenly Father,i hand myself into the mighty hands of Yours..Father please look after my studies and everything around me..and i really hope that nothing will happen in this period of time that will affect my exam..hope after my health Father..bless those around me too..and those who cared and prayed for me the most..thank you Father..in Jesus name i pary,Amen.
Friday 25 April 2008 15:55
currently,my parents are fighting..for goodness sake who knows what happened...one want to pick the fight then another one want to go fighting together with her..for God knows how long i will be living in this house..fighting over like a phone call?!?!can't people just talk nicely to each another?why people love to go agitate another person then say is another person beat them?what kind of shit is this?because of a phone call,because of a birthday celebration..i was surprised by myself this time i never join in the fight for ONCE..everytime i will go join in the fight but today,i dun think there is any reasons for me to form allies with either sides..both sides are cruel in a sense..and i am also tired of my own life..haiz..just hope that God do some changes in this fighting family or just TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS IRRITATING HOUSE..pissed by so many things around le still need care about people fighting..what crap..see..in the end..i will still be in the losing end..got help also same,no help also same..wha lao..what kind of life is this man?irritated leh..
anyway..the third teacher talked to me about the problem again..this time is my NPCC officer-in-charge..he is a nice teacher..as in he is really concern about my school life lah..and my studies..he was sort of blaming himself?because he thought the cause was NP..but told him no lah..then he sort of banned me from joining the drill com this year..haha..he wants me to catch up everything during this period of time..as in studies lah..the most important one..
ok..fighting ceased..but now is nagging and maybe banging of things and blah blah blah..seriously cannot tolerate childish adults who fight or quarrel about almost everything under the sun..for goodness sake..grow up and stop all this nonsense..it makes no sense at all!irritating b**** and b******...shall stop here..or else before i know,i will be nagged for using com..
phew..the big rock in my mind was finally moved away just now...i tried my best to keep myself awake le..though i still abit sleepy at the middle of the 3 period of bio..but managed to wake myself up..praise the Lord..continuing from the previous post about the sch matter..today had a better understanding of the matter..the sch will call parents if not wrong but i think is because they will be monitoring me closely..so it's ok lah..cause it won't be a threat to me!i already promised God to study well for the MYE..so why should i be scared of?
after school went to loyang point with renee,clar and jasmine for their contacts..really have the chong dong to go get a pair of contacts..so cool..gonna buy it..but haha..financial crisis..so no money..but going to work in the hols to earn money for my contacts!so now i going to do my best in the MYE in order for me to go work in the June hols..wanna have coloured contacts..work for it!
I want colour contacts!
Abba Father in heaven,i pray that You will follow me wherever i go to,let my cup overflows in Your love..You are my provider..everything is in You..please love me and let me feel Your presence..let me pass my exams so that i can glorify Your holy name.i will do my very best in this test..God..i know that You will love me more than i can hope or dream of..i hand my life into Your hands my Father in heaven..in Jesus name i pray.Amen
Thursday 24 April 2008 13:51
today wasn't a very good day..was already frustrated in the morning..tried telling myself not to sleep in class anymore..but was still sleepy lah..cannot really concentrate well..but manage to catch some points..after school saw miss toh..then she asked me to buck up in my studies..then say my parents will be called to school..(was heard that today's teachers' meeting every pupil in sec3 was discussed by all the sec3 teachers..and those who has done badly for whatever things in school,parents will be called to sch)at that moment,really wanted to just jump off a building to end my life..i just find life pointless to me..is like a few days ago i just told myself that i will really go study well and not play already but today i was really pull down again..my faith is like thrown from the 20th storey to the ground floor..called jie and told her..was really looking for someone to talk to..so when i went my friend's hse i wanted to chat through msn with a brother..but he told me he tired..haiz..no one to let me talk to..sad for me..but i give thanks to the Lord for i still kind of managed to stand up a bit..left my friend's hse at about 2030..
on my way home i gave one of my xiaomei a call..her life isn't very smooth lately..talked to her for the whole journey back home..hope that she understand lah..when i was talking to her..i wasn't feeling very good cause i think that we both went through almost the same matters..hope that i can learn what i told her too..today was really a sad day..hope that tomorrow will be a better day..
Wednesday 23 April 2008 13:27
today miss mariana(maths teacher) cannot stand it anymore then ask me go out of class then tell me she wants to talk to me..kana scolded by her.cause everytime when i sleep in class thren she will be like 'weicong wake up'then today she scolded me lah..then say if i want sleep in her lesson then dun go attend her lesson..ok..she is really pissed off by me..haha..something really funny happened in sch today..ok..we are like having our history class test today..then i yesterday never study mah..then i today go sch chiong lor..then everywhere i go before history class i talked abt the Tsar's monarchy..so when my classmates and i were waiting outside AVA for history teacher to come,caselyn suddenly asked michael a question "where's the Tsar's winter palace?"(there is really winter palace)so michael dunno tell her what then replied"you know hor,the Tsar not only had winter palace but he also had summer palace,spring palace and autumn palace..."then caselyn was like"izzit?"then michael go tell her"cause hor..the Tsar wen to different palace to stay during different seasons"lols..ok..it's really stupid..then to continue this JOKE,i go tell her.."actually there's a HOLY MONDAY after Bloody Sunday..they named it holy monday to mourn for people who died on bloody sunday"then everyone there was laughing..lols..then after that before the test i did tell her that i was joking with her..haha..then when we returned to class,i go joked with her then asked her,"so did you write holy monday?"then she's like "ya.."then i laughed like dunno what then when i tell the history students,all of them laughed..then caselyn laughed till cry then keep saying wha lao..lols..then after that i go ask her how she write then she tell me she forget about bloody sunday then she go write.."hundreds of people died on Bloody Sunday..thus,on the following day,the citizens CELEBRATED the death of the people who died on Bloody Sunday and named the day Holy Monday."hahahahahaha..it was seriously funny sia..i mean like..she say got study but it's obvious she did not study cause she still tell me she was about to write about the season palace story..lols..then i am like if she write about the winter palace thing..it will be like.."it was winter at that point of time so the Tsar was living in the winter palace.."haha..i think i will kana scolded by my history teacher for sure..but i think maybe he will go write in caselyn paper or just ask her"caselyn,are you trying to be funny to me?"ok..i think i very bad..this test is counted as level test then got percentage in SA..then i still laughed at her..so funny lah..but seriously,sorry caselyn for telling you holy monday..then my friend was like why didn't you tell her good friday..lols..i was about to tell her sabbath tuesday one sia(sabbath should be on sunday)..phew that i did not say..or else i think she will also write down one..
after school went downtown to eat..went to E-hub first..it was really an awesome place..now want go watch movie just cross a road can le..no need go tamp liao..haha..so nice..and got pasta mania also..woohoo!had a good 'bonding' session with jia hui and yun han they all lah..they are just friends that are worth having..so nice to talk to..haha..and not forgetting miss burnt hair..haha..then when back sch actually want study and do homework de but in the end played 'dai-di' with classmates..haha..
then after that went to meet qi qin jie then she taught me about physics lah..lols..had a fun time joking with her..then spent about 1 half hours studying..lols..eyes were really closing le..then qi qin jie keep asking me to wake up..then worst thing is still need go church to meet the da shao ye to take something..but in the end he at simei..so haapy sia..cause qi qin jie also alighting at simei then she pei me go look for him at sakae sushi..then go take money with him..then after that walked qi qin jie halfway home.haha..then when home..waited bus for like half an hour..haha..but today was really a funny day(:
Wednesday 16 April 2008 14:08
today was an 'adventurous' day for me..hmm..sounds stupid but my worksheet was tore up by my ss teacher who always shooting me..like what crap..then i need to go copy the worksheet out again..ok lah.i mean i do in her lesson but she dun need liddat one mah..sad..then today got NPCC..ok..was rather excited cause first time being an NCO lah..was actually only a campcraft member only..but today alot of them training for speech day then i need to take over as an IC..was pissed by the sec 1s lah..do everything like snail..but was bit stupid lah..everyone's like 'weicong sir' like wow that kinda thing..did checking all this blah blah blah..then when changing from NP uni to sch uni that time..i dropped my 10 dollars then he picked up the money then told him was mine then he dun believe then keep saying that i lying or whatever crap lah..then nco debrief session..was chided..think that there's more to come..sian..hmm..tml still need follow shenghong to beach road to buy np stuff..haiz..yesterday was a stupid day?after school when for dry shoot with prcs..nasuha saddest sia..the only girl cause me her and michael when to join prcs for their shooting then their cca is all guys de..that makes nasuha the odd one out..then ok lah..shooting was ok..the CI there was like keep teaching me the technique for shooting cause change pistol le..then he say then i stress till sweat like siao..then he is like 'nervous arh?'ok..that was funny of him..then after that walked to eastpoint cause is at the police station at simei..then bought my favourite ice kimo and waffles at daily fresh..then go home..ok..sounds stupid..but seriously is so stupid..my life is really so boring..so dull..no colour is gonna appear in my life!and to that someone..show some respect for others and dun keep making decision for others..it is very irritating..please understand..
Monday 14 April 2008 13:48
God..please..i am tired..let me find my rest in you Lord..i am really stressed out..i thank you for the ppl you sent to me..ok..not my ears but cui xian jie..i believe i really made her very angry yesterday..i am really sorry..i won't avoid you de..you are just too good to me..haiz..you scolded me for a reason..so no need for a sorry..i am sorry to everyone around me..i dunno why but i am very irritated with the slightest things that happened around me recently..i had no one to talk to...all my ears seems troubled..i dun wish to find anymore new ears..so just wish to say sorry to those who wants to help me..did not want to go church today de..was really God's plan that i arrived at church today..i really had no mood..a church friend asked me what i take church for..haiz..i mean maybe you dun understand what i am going through now?how am i going to stand again when everything around me seems to be wrong...my 3 tracks are all not doing well-family.school,church..nothing seems to be perfect..everything/everyone seems to be going against me..i think maybe this is how God is building me but i am really tired..tired of life?maybe..people are struggling to live yet i am thinking of dying..haiz..living is really a big obstacle that eveyone has to face..maybe i dun have that courage to overcome these obstacles..is letting it go a good idea?
reached church at abt 11.30 today..was really late but it's better than nothing..attended worship gathering but my heart was absent..could not focus..after that actually wanted to go to the john little sales but ya..did not manage to go..when was wondering where to go..the church friend i mentioned earlier asked me why i did not attend service,and cell..told him i woke up late..he askwd me whose fault izzit..it's my fault..i will try to wake up earlier..then actually planned to go ziting's hse to play cluedo with her because that time she suddenly sms me telling me she wants to play cluedo..but then did not go her place..went to tm with michelle..talked to her?ya..little lah..then after that went to bedok library to sleep..happy seems to be deleted from my dictionary/my life..haiz..hope that my new week will be a better one..
Saturday 12 April 2008 15:30
enjoyed being an NCO?maybe i finally understand why everytime NCOs shout at cadets when they do things slowly..helped out in the sec 1s checking of their uniforms..it was then that i found out that 2 years just past in such a quick time..when seeing them checking their uniform,i kept thinking of myself 2 years back..sitting there checking the uniforms but now i am the one teaching others to 'prepare' their uniform..2 years..haiz..alot of things happened..how i wish i can go back to 2 years ago..mr chia asked me to go to NPDP..haha..he say if i go for this event then he will go cover the days that i pon np..but then is actually i lead worship de..then the first person in nmind that can help me is my lao jie(shuiting)..so i called her..then really begged her to help me..cause i know is really short time lah..but she helped me lor!so happy..thanks lao jie(:back to topic..haha..the sec 1s are really hard to control..i think i shouted at them?was the bad guy just now..really have the urge to pump them..haha..they took 30 mins to change into NP uniform..was sort of pissed..cause i have no time..i meeting jie at 5.30 at expo mrt..actually wanted to leave school by 3.30 then go home to change clothes then go meet jie de..cause we wanted to go for the concert again but we had no tickets..so was thinking of going early to queue for the free seating de..but the sec 1s really took so long that everything ended at 5.00..then after that CI talked to us..haiz..not easy being an NCO..new role means new responsibility..after everything finished,it was already 6.30...was already late for 1 hour..jie told me that she had took mrt to changi airport then back to tanan merah le..haha..she was seriously pissed..so went directly to meet her..was thinking that we have no tickets le..should also be no seats le..but at this moment when we just join the non-ticket queue,a man walked up to jie and me..then he asked me i izzit no ticket then i need how many tickets..haha..he gave me 2 when i told him sia..for jie and me..then he told me that he was my senior(haising senior)..cause i was wearing the school uniform..haha really thank God lah..He planned everything right from the start..was so happy..then jie started talking to me..i was like damm guilty..haha..saw hui2 they all..actually dun wish to sit with them de..but went to sit with them eventually..really enjoyed the worship session just now..when it end,jie and me were like still want to have a 100 hours praise and worship session..it was really so nice..was really touched to hear planetshakers playing the song 'rain down'..saw haising cell..haha..after the concert they were like shouting my name sia..like so damm loud that everyone turned to look at me..lols..i was like saying thank you to them..lols..after that went to bedok central with jie to eat..haha..saw weixiang and 'gang'..lols..we were like so high sia..like hey..why you here..started asking each other this kind of questions..after eating wanted to take bus 168 de..but the last bus just went..haha..then went to take bus 67 and jie went to take bus 222..then mother called..say what go fetch me..then tell me very fast..insisted to go fetch me..and it took them 30 minutes to go down to bedok..lols..really thank God for today..everything seems planned..which was true..haha(:
Friday 11 April 2008 12:11
haiz...have you experience when you dun even have a single cent with you for a few days?i seriously been through it..haiz..really broke..and dunno why sia..changing notes with ze ming in the same 'exchange' rate but why i like the more i change,the lesser money i have..sometimes really ask myself..izzit really worth doing things till this far..will others really appreciate what you have done for them?people will just blame you for doing wrong things but they won't praise you for doing good things..for example,the two days i go back to cz to help out but everytime also kana scolded,oh please...the youngest always has the least say in anything..fall out with quite a number of good buddies these few days..hope that i will still be able to stand despite all these setbacks..but the will for living,fighting is really lesser and lesser..
went for the planetshakers concert just now..it's nice..but minutes before the concert starts..i cried upon hearing that my best buddy was diagnosed with cancer..though it is only the second stage,i just kept asking God why must it be her..i kept asking God to let me suffer instead of her..the scene of me and her watching a movie last tues keeps appearing in my mind..i really cannot believe that this is a fact that i have to face..she is such a cheerful person..qiqin jie and jie kept talking to me..and i was able to hand over to God before the concert starts..and when i heard the worship songs..i knew that God is there and i enjoyed myself in the presence of God..
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