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Friday 16 May 2008
07:42

today got back rest of my papers..not very good..but i think i improved for some..:
elementary mathematicsP1-36/60
elementary mathematicsP2-3.5/20
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total:49/100

additional mathematics-24/80
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total:30/100

history-24/50
social studies-28/50
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total:52/100

biology-11+30+12
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total:53/100

ya..that's all i got for the day..was kind of happy for my biology cause i like first time pass?ya..maybe..then my social studies also quite happy..got pass though never get very good..expect much more for that...but saddest is e.maths lah..failed by like 1 mark?ok lah..but did not really study..was sort of motivated by my a.maths teacher just now..so going to get assessments for maths for the holidays...going to get better grades than this time..if count only this SA marks,failed 4 subjects..but if add CA results..i think will fail like 5 subjects?hope not..but thank God..is like today after hearing all my results..i think that i finally put down everything..ya..nothing much to say le..just GIVE PRAISE TO THE LORD!!!

Thursday 15 May 2008
07:33

haiz..got back my exams result..very sad..
here are the following i got for the day(results are only what i got for SA):
english P1-33/60
english P2-13.5/50
english P3-104/175
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total:44/100

chinese P1-55.5/90
chinese P2-57/110
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total:56/100

physics-38/70
chemistry-48/70
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total:61/100

was EXTREMELY sad...fail english sia..is like my paper2 so pathetic lah..haiz..ok lah..then chinese was like so sad..scored so badly..when chinese was like the best of all subjects last time?haiz..ok lah..but got happy one..which is my combined science..cause i passed my physics test finally..lols...then also quite ok for chemistry..is like maybe one of the best in class?PRAISE TO THE LORD..although get poor results must also praise God..cause must praise Him no matter what happened..so ya..i know the best myself that i had worked hard for the MYE le..so ya..mrs chan asked me about my tenses for my composition just now..cause my tenses all mixed up and i got only 14/30..the title was "the most difficult period in my life"..so i go write..but things that are happening now i write present tenses then things happening in the past i write past tenses..so in the end my tenses all MIXED UP...ya..got nothing to say cause i sort of released all my frustration in the composition?ya..something liddat..so ya lor..no regrets lah..i knew that i had done the best i could..just gonna pray that God lead me through lah..that's what i can say lor...

went cavana to eat with renee and clar just now after school..talked about christian stuffs..told them that i kept thinking that God gonna come cause of all the disasters happening recently..ya lor..then in class talked to jacklyn and isabel about christian stuffs also..they are like keep asking me about why this why that..lols..they sound so curious about christians..haha..

Monday 12 May 2008
16:18

haiz..God..how could you have forsaken me?and my "dear" friends out there..God...i am really helpless..lets start from yesterday..ok..i was the soundman for yesterday's service..a friend(maybe i am a nothing to him/her) of mine said that he/she wanna talk to me..i was actually happy..cause i think that he/she is maybe the only one who can talk to the copycat/irritating person..but he/she did not talk to me..this seriously pissed me off..can you please stop making empty promises?and giving others false hope?ok..then reached church at 6.50..no one..so kept singing a song which touched me alot..it goes....
"hope my faith strong
let me not fall
Father carry me
when my walk is a crawl
lead me through the rocky terrain
help me get back
on my feet again
on my feet again"
ok..then after that was sort of cheered up..cause ton night for not being late..then very sleepy..then was ok de..but after that do PA stuffs...was praying to God that the whole thing will be so damm smooth..but things happened..
1.something wrong with the recording software
2.the pastor for the day gonna play guitar
then is like the PA in charge was so freak out when i added him what to do..sad..then after that heard that the pastor need use his own guitar..i was like OMT..God..what happened?!?!then ok le..when was setting up..this irritating person,was like kept changing my things..i am like ok fine..but please tell me..give me the least respect that a soundman for the day should have..but he/she did not..just kept changing my overall till shuang..then at last then tell me..WTF...ok nevermind..i just cool myself down..then during service when the pastor was talking to me about the guitar thing..he/she also want to interfere..i ask other people help me he/she also want interfere..what's the problem with him/her man..can't he/she just mind his/her own business?WTF...then the pastor's voice sound like his/her..then i pissed lah...kept imagining that he/she kept nagging at me...then i really cannot stand it anymore...after service..i wanted to learn to record disc so next time no need ask him/her to do for me..so asked zm to help me..but in the end,what he do?pushed me to him/her to teach...crap lah..when knowing i hate him/her till like dunno what..then i seriously gonna cry..keep trying to cool myself down..after cell asked michelle and jie to accompany me go outside eat...when reached 1st floor..cannot control le...cried out..so malu..then go eat..then after crying out feel better..then go back church..freaking pissed..slept for a while..then go to the GDOP..ok..talked to other people about it..but maybe no one really understand my situation cause they not in my shoes..ok..had a great worship at the GDOP(chinese)..then almost slept through the whole session..very tired..then went leisure park to eat with shuilin,michelle,jie..then go home..haiz..very sad..had a sudden moment of going to l**** c*****..felt that i am being forced...

ok..today was the most day for me..woke up at 9..then called jie..then discussed about her F&N..is like for her O levels then she like dun care liddat..dunno is i taking or she taking..then after that met her at tamp inter then we go to griffith pri there to eat chicken rice but today never open..sad sia...but still ok lah..talked about alot of things..then go shing song buy her ingredients for the food then go ziting's house cook..we did muffins..pasta...brownies...lols..was having a fun time there..have not had so much fun with them already..i mean like now i can only find joy when talking to them lah..lols..baking was fun..haha..then cook till dinno what time..haha..jie told me alot of things when going home then ya lor..sad..but cheer up jie!!!haha..tomorrow going ice cream chef..hope that it will be fun lah..oh ya..and actually going to work de..but my friend tell me last minute no vacancy..sad lah..but it's ok..no matter what..must still praise God..ya..and i believe that He will give me a better job..and He dun want tongues to wag behind me for the sunday service thingy..that's what i think..so ya..i think was God's grace also lah..so ya..thank God for everything i have been through afterall...thank God..

Abba Father i pray that you give ziting strength for her second session of chemotherapy..i pray that she won't be so tired out..Lord..give her strength to overcome all this..nothing is impossible in you Lord..please help her...Lord i bring jie into Your mighty hands..i pray that she has the courage to overcome all this problems that she is facing now..lead her through this period of time when she is the weakest..let her shine in Your glory and not defeated in satan's hand..just bless her Lord..let her cup overflows in Your love..give her things that are more than she can hope or dream of..Lord bless the two sisters of mine..in Your glorious name i pray..Amen..

Saturday 10 May 2008
17:47

this is just crap..total shit lah..i am avoiding duties?oh please..one wants to act till he is so awesome..ya..what if you are good in PA?no one is going to do anything to you right?ask you help me awhile then what..go tell everyone?i know you very good but no need liddat right?please..if given a choice..i wouldn't have asked you to help..are you thinking too highly of yourself?ya..i admit that i not good in PA..but you also no need everything liddat one..if you want to prove that you very good then prove lah..i won't want to go snatch your GLORY with you de..oh please..you helped ppl take over duties like WOW..kind..but when i ask you help me take awhile only..you need to like let everyone know?then?worse..let others kana scolding for nothing..can you please stop that?i really hate it..please stop that i seriously mean..so what if others can take the nonsense that you showing?i cannot..please..ya..someone is behind you to support you..so?big izzit?stop acting kind..

i wish to dig out something to say again..people older than me always have more say..please..EVERYTHING is said by all of you..at home,school,EVERYWHERE...i am not saying that i am wah..so HOLY..but humans are still humans in the end..a president to a beggar...all are HUMANS..no matter what...i think that EVERYONE has a say..even a baby..so..to all those who love to accuse others for things that they never do..please change..thanks in advance..or else you will piss others off easily(not only my view)..so ya..change for goodness sake..you will be so loved by others if you change..but if you still love to WAH...act big lah..act clever lah..ABUSE AUTHORITY or whatever shit..YOU WILL BE SO "LOVED" BY PEOPLE AROUND YOU!!

and to ALL OF YOU..you are just so disappointing..i think so highly of you all but what i get in return?your distrust..and ya..you all know better than me..

but i thank God for sendng these people around me to train me to be so dead to feelings of people..

oh..just got this quote from a brother(was quite pissed with him though).." sticks and rod can break me but words can never hurt me "..try killing me with your words lah..and.." i proof ui that next time i can have the chance to suan u back "..get wait and see..not in PA..will be in other ways..just wait and see..

exams are finally over..thank God..haiz..things happened..how sad can it be..but i must seriously thanks jie..and thank God for this sister..

to jie:thanks so much..thanks for walking through the maze with me..thanks for being there for me..sorry for letting you waste your time talking through the park with me...is like your test is today then i still like need you to waste so much of your precious time on me..so sorry..but you are the best jie!

ok..let me briefly say what has happened..ok..was with jie yesterday..then used jie's phone sms her..then she replied..then i am like OMT..she replied a stranger's number but not mine..then ok lah..my fault..then aeksd jie go solcd her...then she say she was rtristeecd by her flimay..ok..then i very sad..my fleenig was like tyoed?then go beach walked so long..jie was there with me..then was sad throughout the whole night..was affected then never study bio..but thank God today still ok lah..ya lor..was kind of cheered up by her when she called just now..but ya..when things are not meant for you..it's not meant to be there lah..that's what i can say..cheer up weicong..

Sunday 4 May 2008
14:58

happy day?sad day?omg..yesterday let jie waited for me at t3 for like 3 hours?then i like never even meet her?!?!so sorry for that..after that went bedok to see if i can find her there..then saw my pri school friend..rachael..omg..still as chio as before..my first crush?jk only lah..haiz..called her hse then her mother say she sleeping..sian..my heart is really breaking...

ok..talk about today...was ling ling jie's big day..her marriage with shane ge!!!!morning went to meet ppl but they late..was so angry lah..cause i tot i going to be late then i still rush taxi down..then waited for like 30 mins in formal shirt?so hot?sweating like a pig sia..then saw the lastest strolling..wha lao..9 dollars sia...ok..then went to church..go through the ceremony..saw how blissful the couple are...so sweet..is like then i keep wanting to marry immediately..lols..so INSPIRED by them that i decided to go work hard for my grand grand wedding..haha..st andrew's cathedral!then eat le go church..haha...had quite a fun time with jia jun and they all..ya..i think i still cannot forget what has happened..sorry..then went to eat dinner at simpang..then go t3 with jie to study..didn't really study lah..but i still thank God for the day..to see church friends getting married..oh ya..was thinking about this just now when walking home..time flies...from the time that shane ge proposed to ling ling jie till now is like WOW..quite long ago..haha..time is precious..but seems useless to me..

Thursday 1 May 2008
13:18

ok..today wasn't a good day for me..it was unlucky..ok..is like i studied my history and A.maths till 2 plus..then i today when taking history..at first everything was fine but when i reached the essay part..my brain just shut down..then i dunno what to write for essay..knowing that i will fail..i was rather sad about it lah..but i know that i still got A.maths so i cannot afford to emo and affect my test..when i opened the test paper..every question are like dunno what sia..damm difficult..then i keep skipping those i dunno then before i could finish the paper..TIME'S UP..wth sia..i think i must thank God if i can get 15/80 le..everyone was stressed out sia..then i was seriously no mood..went to hide at staircase to cry..then went back class..then after school need to run 2.4. for 'narfa'..run like siao then pulled my leg muscle..pain sia..but was grateful to jun wei that he help me applied some sort of cream which was like smelly but he was still willing to help me applied the cream..then went library to rest..then when cheryl passed me my bag..found out that my handphone was LOST..was stolen cause my bag zip is opened lah..my earpiece also lost..then go find teacher..blah blah blah..all the procedures lah..but i thank God..He sent wei yan,jasmine ang/mah,cheryl,oliva there to helped me..cause my leg stll very pain..then i walk very slow..then cheryl and oliva took the trouble to went up to class to see if i left my phone there..then jasmine.m walked me to staffroom to tell miss rathi..then wei yan and jasmine.a go everywhere find then go office help me report..then wei yan and jasmine.a went to guard house to get the smelly lotion to apply on my leg again..is like they one person help me apply one leg..wow..was like so fortunate..they helped me do every single thing i need cause i really like disabled..walk like snail..then when i was feeling better walked to burger king at whitesands..then had a good time chatting with them..though i lost my phone, i got back friendships in return...is like priceless lah..was so thankful to God..though lost phone..but no matter what..i must still praise God..cause He look after me no matter where i am..thank God..anyway..i dun blame anyone for this incident this time..no one is to be blamed..