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Sunday 30 November 2008 03:18 cant sleep..and also afraid of not being ever to wake up..after hearing what zhenhua ge said at the prayer meeting yesterday..followed up with the recent news..knowing about the fact, the everything...and now that i am alone, i got this unexplainable fear haunting me..the fear of terrorism..the lack of security..the peace..true enough..the world is now so chaotic..in such a big mess..God is showing something..He is showing something to us..we must rise up for His Kingdom..God is awesome..He will definitely win the devils..i am not fearful in the name of Jesus..God is working..have not really blog for quite a long time..from coming back from china till now..been quite a while..many things happened..good and bad..but i praise the Lord for i lived through it anyway..this period of time is really not easy for me..especially having the fear of losing brothers and sisters around me..it seems to me that they are drifting apart from me, i am drifting apart from them..people whom i talk to is no longer there for me when i need them..people that i find joy in is no longer there..things changed..people whom i talk to in the past..my closest brothers and sisters are like strangers to me now..it seems that i can find no one to talk to, to cry to when i need help now..i am helpless..but God let me know that it is time to let me really understand that i need You more than words can say..more and more each day..it's when i am weak that You are strong..Lord..Healer..You heal me now..let the past be past..i am handing all my burdens into You..i am really tired..tired to do anything now..let me find rest in You Lord..You are my Shepherd..i shall not want..You will fill my cup..after going to the batam trip..we went to the children's home,'Bedesda'.it's a christian children's home..when i went into the place..the living condition is really bad..absolutely..seeing the children..how they even say such a warm 'thank you' upon giving them a paper crane makes me realise one thing..if it was to be a singapore kid..maybe they will just throw it away upon receiving it?we don't know how to cherish things..we take things for granted..after the singaporean hostage incident..it made me more firm that hey..we should cherish things around us..we are taking things too lightly..we are really taking things for granted..who can assure you that singapore is a safe country?without any attacks from terrorism does not means that there is no danger..the world is now in a mess..anything could happen..we must stand up ourselves..i must..God help us but not to a point that we dun even need to move..treasure people around us..who know's that maybe tomorrow will be the last day you see your friend after she leaves for mumbai like the singapore hostage?God..i just pray that You look after everyone of us in this world..You got Your plans just that we don't know about it..God work in Your way..let me also know how to treasure people around me.be it my family or brothers and sisters out there..let me not take things for granted too..let me know the importance of spreading your gospels before everything is too late..You reign You reign..shower Your love down this very minute onto everyone..and on the family of the hostages..God You love them..let them hear of Your good asap and to know that God You have a purpose in anything You do..Lord please also look after my serving..let me really stand firm in my ministeries in serving You Lord.i praise You for You are great..may my prayer go through the cloud and directly to Your House.i pray all these in Jesus precious name,Amen. |
