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Wednesday 29 October 2008
07:44

hmm...guys..i miss you too...hahaa..think that there's alot of things for me to thank God about..really love my Father ao much..He really let me felt that there are alot of people around me..the brothers and sisters around me..haha..from the tags..haha..and i really feel prayers around me..hmm..was really talking to my roommate..yeah..at first both of us opposed to sleep with one another..but now we sort of become very good friends?haha..made a habit that i will make a prayer with him upon reaching every hotel..and was telling Him that i really felt that God has blessed us with the trip..seems like every room that we stayed is the best room..haha..then he also agreed..haha..reached hefei in the afternoon then went to the school for the exchange programme..hmm..was with this guy in the school..wah..he is really a obedient guy sia..very hardworking and etc...we kept talking throughout the interaction time..haha..good to know him..thank God..and also thank God for shuiting,huihuijie,xiaomei,joi..alot of them..cared for me..haha..i know you guys love me..hahaha...i also love you too!woohoo...got some info that sunmei jie lost her voice..God You just blessed her with voice..Your lovely voice from heaven..haha..God bless her..and shuiting..having her o'lvls..Lord You bless her..ya..the others Lord You just bless them according to what they need..thank God and in Jesus name i pray,Amen.

Sunday 26 October 2008
22:20

hmm...in ningguo now..hmm...feeling sort of sad now..i am like WHAT THE HELL IS THIS MANN?!?!people ignoring me..whatsoever..i mean like are these people hypocrites?that's crap..please lah..people here and there..sort of everyone?haiz..i dunno lah..hope that's is because they are stress themselves..nvm..can talk to me(:i am going to be a good counsellor!!!woohoo..GOD is good in this trip actually...hmm..remember that in the hotel got ppl are so afraid of ghost..lols..ok..i admit i am sort of scared..BUT i think God gave me the faith to believe in Him..i still sort of like chided my friend..i am must have faith in God lah..then i still like going to my friend's room and pray for them because they are scared..hahaha..i am gonna be the salt and light of God..i am going to shine in this trip..but i am really missing PEOPLE IN SINGAPORE!haiz the brothers and sisters..oh my..i miss church..VERY!ppl there..i called and msg them ytd..i almost cried..i am really missing them..esp the few of them..the few of them who came to send me off..the few of them whom i talked to..the few of them who goes out with me..the few of them...hiaz..missing them so much..people whom i love so much..HER!!!missing HER so much!!!wanted to buy things for the 2tings de..jackets..but now they having autumm sale..so is like buy le then they also cannot use..haha..still thinking what to get for friends but seems like difficult leh..nothing to buy..haiz..anywae..sort of got something for myself..a coat..something that i wanna get for a long time just that i think that it is sort of stupid to get..and too expensive to buy in singapore..so now bought one in china..lols..tried flying fox just now..so cool..the treetop walk..haha..daring rite..guts that i dun have in the past..as in singapore..haha..was really fun lah..but was sort of afraid at the same time..but i did it at last..so nothing to be fear off...only God..only fear Him..haha..nothing else to fear except Him..woohoo..i really thank God that these few days have been following "living life"..i thank God for that cause it really hold me close to Him..haha..oh..and i broke rules here..haah..sneak out to somewhere near when i cant..kana caught..haha..then got some stupid detention here...following teacher around..but in the end did not lah..haha..food here is really nice..got salty food in nanjing..sweet food in suzhou..then now spicy food in ningguo...haha..so fun to have all different types of food..hmm..dunno how to continue cause sort of eating some same food in china..lols..and also the surrounding lah..haha..getting colder and colder day by day..and ppl around me..really quite bad lah..adding on is i seeem to have caught a flu..haha..pls pray for me peeps..promised to go back in a piece..so i must..hahahahahahahaha..hmm..think nothing else le..anything just msg me peeps..i think should be normal cost lah..i really miss you guys..God bless everyone in the trip and everyone in singapore..i thank you Lord(:

~missing HER so badly..

Tuesday 21 October 2008
02:33

hmm...reached home about 1.5 hours ago..after 3 hours of non-stop tuition at hui2 jie's hse..first time so hardworking..hahaha..thank God for that..yesterday wasn't a really good day lah..dunno why that after hearing what my sis say..tears circled my eyes..really wished to cried out but managed to control my tears eventually..haiz..was thinking so much at that time..who can really understand my feeling?i feel so hopeless at that point of time..really hopeless..i wanted to find someone to talk about things but i feel that no one is there for me..ya..everyone will try to ask me to talk to God..i did..but i still need someone for me to talk to..just that no one seems to be there for me..sad..flying off in 2 days..been thinking alot..so hope that someone will be there to send me off..other than my parents..but ya..i know is just my wishful thinking..haha..kept thinking that i won't return from this trip..ya..maybe will..returning in a coffin or a urn..hahaha..i mean i dun really feel much abt dying now?after what has happened?i remembered saying that my dearest friends/"family" are sort of my engine for living..ok..God is the petrol there to keep it going but they are the engines to let it move..without any one of them and i sort of cannot carry on..ya..my engines are changed..thank God for that..but really felt that no one is really there for me when they are there..hahaha..hope to build my friendship and "familyship" with my brothers and sisters if i can return back to singapore safely..hahaha..if i die..i will definitely remember you guys..maybe asking God to love you guys more..hahahahhahahahaahaha..as if i can reach God...life seems meaningless to me every now and then..ya..i want to live a fruitful life..God in You..You are always good..haiz..but still got things to thank God abt..like yesterday..was really tired after toning night but i really very tired.i know i will definitely sleep during sermon..i really thank God cause i was telling Him that i want to praise Him with all my might and all i have..i really worship with an open heart yesterday..and right after the worship..i really felt refreshed..but whole sermon was more of waking people up..haha..my brother beside me keep dozing off..cannot stand it..agreed to cannot sleep during sermon then he still there nodding head..wha lao...lols..learnt alot yesterday in the sermon..ya..we must try to be the most perfect in God..then yesterday night this brother stayed in church till so late to sort of accompany me?despite being tired..haha..maybe not but it definitely is encouraging to me(:

~still loving and waiting to have a chance to talk to her

Tuesday 14 October 2008
15:55

got back from sch..hmm..got back all my test..really thank God..though some is not so good..but i dunno why i dun really feel sad this time round..i feel that maybe God wants to show me something..i mean i tried my best..haha..here are the results..only SA2..others not added yet..
English:failed(marks not given)
A.Maths:22.5/100(F9)
E.Maths:58.3/100(C5)
P.Biology:63/100(B4)
Combined Science:48.2/100(D7) -- but Project.I pull the marks up..so should be a pass..
-Chemistry:36.5/70
-Physics:31/70
Combined Humanities:58/100(C5)
-Social Studies:28/50
-History:30/50
Chinese:58.8/100(C5)

haha..not very good..but i just thank God for it..haha..ya..isn't a good pass for all the subjects..but i know i tried my best..like what a brother of mine said..as long as i tried my best..ya..pastor's wife once told me..passing is what we are supposed to obtain,the marks after the pass is to glorify God..ya..true..ok..maybe this time not too much marks to glorify God but still got glorify Him mah..hahaha..hmm..just really wish that i can promote to Sec4..this hols i will really chiong my Maths and Chinese..haha..quite happy lah..overall..though cannot get a pair of flags..but i think i am already contented with what God has given me..and most importantly is how He guided me with my relationships with my friends in school lah..like just now a friend cried..i can understand..i mean is just that i didn't show out..then classmates were all there to console her..then i am like 'see so many ppl cares abt you..then you....'forget what i say le..then who knows that she cried even worse..oh my..haha..but after that i am the one with my friend who are acting some funny stuff to make her laugh..haha..we succeeded..*claps*

hmm..was discussing this issue abt friends with clar just now..i dunno why but i feel this very dear friend beside me..we are drifting apart..so far..i really felt so sad..i feel that he/she will be close to me whenever help is needed but when he/she is fine..i seems to be translucent..between opaque and transparent..haiz..how we had good friendships in the past but now?i dun seem to talk to he/she anymore..only when needed..haiz..another friend of he/she seems to be difting away together with me..how?why did this even happen?i really felt very sad after all these..so being used to it?haiz..nothing seems to be able to change the fact now then we are not really die hard friends..hmm..and my conclusion is..
EVERYONE PLEASE CHERISH YOUR FRIENDS AROUND YOU..DON'T REGRET AFTER THEY LEAVE YOU!(red alert!)

oh..ok.this is specially requested from my xiaomei to post this..haha..a thank you message to her..hahaha..but speaking truthfully..deep down my heart..she is really good to me..encouraging me with messages..so nice of her..to be through the exams period with me..haha..a nice sister that i am having..haha..and this brother of mine..hmm..nice brother to have..taught me Physics but in the end..failed the subject..haiz..so bad of me to waste his time and did not pass the subject..sorry brother..but i will work hard for it!then hmm..kind of worried for another brother of mine..haha..enlisted in army...then heard that very not good things are happening..which i think is quite funny lah..hmm..but i got faith in him and Him..haha..so rite..conclusion is i got faith in this brother and God..God's protection is over us!!the happy family of mine!!!woohoo..

God is good all the time
He put a song of praise in this heart of mine
God is good all the time
Through the darkest night, His light will shine
God is good, God is good all the time

ya..God is good..always..through the darkest valley..He will always be there for us..He is good and great..not now..but all the time!

~missing her so much

Tuesday 7 October 2008
15:41

oh my..i can finally sign into hotmail and blogger using my own com again..God is great..and He is always..now and forever..i was really happy today!firstly i finally finished my EOY!God just helped me so much these days..without Him..i really dunno what i will become now..haha..and ya..today for prayer meeting..i lead worship..God is so good..He answered my prayer..He knew that i wished to sing for Him and He put me on stage..to worship Him with all that i can..was pretty nervous at first..during practice..but His grace just covered me..from choosing of the songs to the planning of people being musicians..all is being planned by Him..Him alone!!haha..firstly..the choosing of songs..i was stuck!i dunno how to link..but He linked it for me..then initially..when i was told to lead worship..i kept thinking of a full band..but last week..i just gave up the idea..thinking that it was a bit too over..but today..God is wonderful..at first only had a guitarist and pianist..then after that this bro of mine was emo-ing and asked me to ask another person or there isn't even a need for a guitarist..was sad...quite emo after that..cause i am only left with a pianist..but after that another brother came in to help as a guitarist..i mean i already thank God for that..it has already satisfy the need for a proper worship..so everything just went on..with His presence there..but i dunno why in the end..the emo-ing brother just came in to help and the initial guitarist became the drummer..i reall saw how God wanted us to give Him our very best..He knew that i wanted to worship Him with a full band..and He gave it to me after a big detour..with so much experience..haha..dun only think of worship Him with a simple worship..but a majestic one..a real proper one!haha..and at first i was joking that later everyone on stage then no one below(cause few people attends pm)..but i mean there are only the same old faces..but today..i felt that there are very invisible worshippers..which is the Holy Spirit..i dunno why..i feel so much for today's worship..i really feel that i am really giving Him praises like i have never done before..i really feel that the presence of God is there with us..everyone of us..and i really enjoy worship a lot..not because i am the one leading but because i feel the presence of the Lord and healing power is just flowing into the place...i really thank God..and not forgetting people that He placed into this team:jiayi, shuiting, linglingjie, zhenhuage and zeming(emo-kia)..must really say a big thank you to this brothers and sisters around me..they really made my day..especially one of the sisters that she is sick but still willing to serve Him and another sister..telling me that 'weicong,i decided to serve God' ..though she got something on..God sees it..the willingness of His people in serving..and this is the revival generation..haha..dunno why but quite believed that the revival of a church is by things like prayer meeting..willingness of people is also important..i think today's worship is so filled with God's presence because of the willingness of people serving..haha..clap for God!!!hmm..quite sad..listening ear leaving for army liao..no more ear already..sad but it's ok..haha..hope that today's worship with help(:
~"True worship is when the spirit, the immortal and invisible part of man, speaks to and meets with God, who is immortal and invisible." -William Barclay

i think that i still cant stop thinking of you..i really wish that maybe all these things did not even happen in the first place..

~love you forever...

Saturday 4 October 2008
07:18

finished bio and a.maths paper today..haha..bio was great..i can really do it myself!woohoo!God is great!God is good!haha..i thought the paper was easy but all my friends all say difficult..lols..my a.maths really cmi..was staring so long at the paper..then whole mind total blank..dunno what to do..and then quite sad lah..cause after the test..realised that i know how to do-.- but i cant emo because of this paper..must still carry on with my physic and e.maths paper1...ya..hols must really chiong a.maths..realised how slack i am for a.maths..hahahaha..so must really do le..hmm..thanks for those who console me about the maths paper..haha..really thank God for them and most importantly Him!!!He is great and mighty!

i just want her to be happy..that's all i can wish for(:

~love you forever...

Wednesday 1 October 2008
06:40

finished my paper today..and all because of tml celebration,my teacher just start paper after paper without letting us stop..really pissed..but it's ok..need go church now..prayer meeting..haha..we come and blog asap after exams..

~love you forever...