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Friday, 11 April 2008 12:11 haiz...have you experience when you dun even have a single cent with you for a few days?i seriously been through it..haiz..really broke..and dunno why sia..changing notes with ze ming in the same 'exchange' rate but why i like the more i change,the lesser money i have..sometimes really ask myself..izzit really worth doing things till this far..will others really appreciate what you have done for them?people will just blame you for doing wrong things but they won't praise you for doing good things..for example,the two days i go back to cz to help out but everytime also kana scolded,oh please...the youngest always has the least say in anything..fall out with quite a number of good buddies these few days..hope that i will still be able to stand despite all these setbacks..but the will for living,fighting is really lesser and lesser.. went for the planetshakers concert just now..it's nice..but minutes before the concert starts..i cried upon hearing that my best buddy was diagnosed with cancer..though it is only the second stage,i just kept asking God why must it be her..i kept asking God to let me suffer instead of her..the scene of me and her watching a movie last tues keeps appearing in my mind..i really cannot believe that this is a fact that i have to face..she is such a cheerful person..qiqin jie and jie kept talking to me..and i was able to hand over to God before the concert starts..and when i heard the worship songs..i knew that God is there and i enjoyed myself in the presence of God.. |
